The Country Of
Marriage
(excerpt)
V.
Our bond is no little economy based on
the exchange
of my love and work for yours, so much for so much
of an
expendable fund. We don't know what its limits are --
that puts us in the
dark. We are more together
than we know, how else could we keep on
discovering
we are more together than we thought?
You are the known way
leading always to the unknown,
and you are the known place to which the
unknown is always
leading me back. More blessed in you than I know,
I
possess nothing worthy to give you, nothing
not belittled by my saying that I
possess it.
Even an hour of love is a moral predicament, a blessing
a man
may be hard up to be worthy of. He can only
accept it, as a plant accepts
from all the bounty of the light
enough to live, and then accepts the
dark,
passing unencumbered back to the earth, as I
have fallen tine and
again from the great strength
of my desire, helpless, into your
arms.
VI.
What I am learning to give you is my death
to set you
free of me, and me from myself
into the dark and the new light. Like the
water
of a deep stream, love is always too much. We
did not make it.
Though we drink till we burst
we cannot have it all, or want it all.
In
its abundance it survives our thirst.
In the evening we come down to the
shore
to drink our fill, and sleep, while it
flows through the regions of
the dark.
It does not hold us, except we keep returning
to its rich waters
thirsty. We enter,
willing to die, into the commonwealth of its
joy.
VII.
I give you what is unbounded, passing from dark to
dark,
containing darkness: a night of rain, an early morning.
I give you
the life I have let live for the love of you:
a clump of orange-blooming
weeds beside the road,
the young orchard waiting in the snow, our own
life
that we have planted in the ground, as I
have planted mine in you. I
give you my love for all
beautiful and honest women that you gather to
yourself
again and again, and satisfy--and this poem,
no more mine than
any man's who has loved a woman.
~ Wendell
Berry ~
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