Final Words
I cannot leave you without
saying this:
the past is nothing,
a nonmemory, a phantom,
a soundproof
closet in which Johann Strauss
is composing another waltz no one can
hear.
It is a fabrication, best
forgotten,
a wellspring of sorrow
that waters a field of bitter
vegetation.
Leave it behind.
Take
your head out of your hands
and arise from the couch of melancholy
where
the window-light falls against your face
and the sun rides across the autumn
sky,
steely behind the bare trees,
glorious as the high strains of
violins.
But forget Strauss.
And
forget his younger brother,
the poor bastard who was killed in a fall
from
a podium while conducting a symphony.
Forget the past,
forget
the stunned audience on its feet,
the absurdity of their formal clothes
in
the face of sudden death,
forget their collective gasp,
the murmur and
huddle over the body,
the creaking of the lowered curtain.
Forget Strauss
with that
encore look in his eye
and his tiresome industry:
more than five hundred
finished compositions!
He even wrote a polka for his mother.
That alone is
enough to make me flee the past,
evacuate its temples,
and walk alone
under the stars
down these dark paths strewn with acorns,
feeling nothing
but the crisp October air,
the swing of my arms
and the rhythms of my
stepping--
a man of the present who has forgotten
every composer, every
great battle,
just me,
a thin reed blowing in the night.
~ Billy
Collins~
(Sailing Alone Around the
Room)
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