In the Middle
of a life that's as
complicated as everyone else's,
struggling for balance, juggling time.
The
mantle clock that was my grandfather's
has stopped at 9:20; we haven't had
time
to get it repaired. The brass pendulum is still,
the chimes don't
ring. One day you look out the window,
green summer, the next, and the leaves
have already fallen,
and a grey sky lowers the horizon. Our children almost
grown,
our parents gone, it happened so fast. Each day, we must
learn
again how to love, between morning's quick coffee
and evening's slow
return. Steam from a pot of soup rises,
mixing with the yeasty smell of
baking bread. Our bodies
twine, and the big black dog pushes his great head
between;
his tail is a metronome, 3/4 time. We'll never get there,
Time is
always ahead of us, running down the beach, urging
us on faster, faster, but
sometimes we take off our watches,
sometimes we lie in the hammock, caught
between the mesh
of rope and the net of stars, suspended, tangled up
in
love, running out of time.
~ Barbara Crooker
~
(Yarrow)
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